Ocean Memoirs

Bad Moods Ahoy

I don't think I could possibly be in a worser mood today... I feel so super grumpy. Snappy and all of the above. I can't even work out why I feel this bad. I mean yes I'm feeling a bit sick, sore throat, etc. But that doesn't normally put me in this much of a grumpy mood. Oh well what can ya do.....

Anyway I haven't written much over the last few days as I have been bombarded with visitors and the heat just got too much in the end. With the amount of visitors I've had it feels like I haven't had a chance to sit and just breath... Not that I didnt want any of them... It was so fantastic to get the visits... cousins and their kids who I haven't see for ages, a best friend who will always be a best friend no matter how long we go without seeing or chatting to each other, two dear friends one of which travels everywhere and the other who lives a little too far away, and a great mummy catch up with two fantastic friends who just make me sit and laugh and enjoy.... hmm ok mood starting to lift a little now....

I have to say I am so grateful for my friends... I am the kind of person who once you're my friend you're my family. I have such a variety of friends who I love dearly. A few years back after N and I were married I began to understand the difference between a proper friendship and a one sided friendship. It took a lot out of me to put in so much effort and get little in return and slowly I began to withdraw from friendships that were never really there, it was hard as i felt like i was turning away from something special... but the relief to not endure the disappointment of putting in a great deal of effort to receive nothing back was much better for my soul. Now being on the other side of it all it is wonderful to know that all my friends are true friends and what i give i get in return. While I have a lot of friends that I see regularly and am always in contact with, including a group of online friends that are fantastic support. I also have several very special friends who while we don't get to see each other often and aren't in contact much, when we do manage to get together its like we'd been in contact the entire time. We start up right where we've left off and can talk about anything and everything. It's so nice to have those people as I know no matter what we will always be friends til our dying says. And then there is one very special friend who has been there with me through the thick of everything and while she lives miles away i talk to her more than i talk to anyone else. She's supported me through a lot of big things and probably knows me better than i know myself these days. She's the kind of friend who keeps me in check, and will tell me when I'm right or wrong... I'm very grateful for her.

Ahhh chocolate the answer to every bad mood.. haha... On that note I think I will come back and write again when my mood has gotten better